Life 삶 (1)

Life can be sometimes enmeshed in a web of deceit and lies. And it's like an insect being trapped in a calculated web of a spider. In this case, there's certainly no escapeway, except that you're a escapist. Deception is one of ways, an effective one to realize something desired. Chasing after a thing that you wish to own is absolutely not similar to commiting a discourtesy. However, if you're doing something for the sake of your own good but others' trouble, it's not right anymore.

Life in the city is a delight to me as well as a dismay to me.

The goods are undoubtedly meeting new people and learning new stuffs daily as well as knowing how to live independently. They are really essential and are as pieces of empirical evidence that I'm actually going through the next stage of my mental, emotional and psychological development, a life process of every living creature.

There's only one bad: some creatures are creating menace to world peace. They are not as dangerous as weaponed terrorists as in 911 attacks. Yet, they are causing the outbreaks of inharmony. Some of them are advocating world peace by joining 'Causes' in their Facebooks but they're never aware that the actions they are taking are somewhat ignoble.

There's nothing to exemplify. Natural selection does really exist. Competition does take place everywhere but needs to happen in a positive manner. Lending your helping hand is an obligation as well as a piece of evidence for civilization.

Mans who're lacking in gratitude are truly nothing but a pile of dog shit.
Someone wicked even had plotted to destroy those who didn't do they a favour.
Those who never frankly admit that they've problems with their personality but always point at others when something goes wrong are absolutely a load of imbecilices.

On what foundation do your bold, mad, pitiable, and execrable arrogance rest?
Staying away from this bunch would be a better way...

City of temptation, Here I come!

The largest city of the Malay speaking nation, Kuala Lumpur in which I will have my living here for two years for my pre-university courses in University College Sedayah International. In spite of not being the most floushing city in Asia, Kuala Lumpur is a city full of temptation, the gloss and glitter of the city would seem pretty fascinating to us, especially the outsiders which are from sururban or rural areas of the country. I hope I can focus on my study anyhow in the college besides learning how to live a urban life.

Booty

Shamelessly request every passerby to have a look on my booty. :) 

There's a bulge in each single envelope, what do you think 'the bulge' is? Tada! The 'bulges' total MYR 290 $ )

Do you wish to have one of the 'bulges'? ;P
Footnote: The 'bulges' are the booty looted from my ex-school. :)

Do I Deserve?

A fair morning, not until the cuckoo said eleven o'clock, when my brother brought me an envelope measuring 23 cm × 10 cm with my name and home address typewritten in totally five rows and a blue circular stamp of my school's name on it. Didn't really take care of my brother's words on that time due to my annoyance at the way he talked to his elders, and I had the letter from his hands and kept on reading a paragraph in book by Rais Yatim. A minute later after finishing the paragraph, I took up the envelope and read its contents, as follows:

Encik / Cik,

Jemputan ke Majlis Anugerah Cemerlang Sekolah Menengah Dato' Idris 2008

Dengan hormatinya merujuk keada tujuan di atas.

2. Sehubungan dengan hal itu, pihak sekolah dengan sukacitanya menjemput encik / cik serta ibu bapa / penjaga hadir ke Majlis Anugerah Cemerlang Sekolah Menengah Dato' Idris 2008 yang telah diadakan mengikut butiran berikut:

Tarikh: 21hb Jun 2008 (Sabtu)

Masa: 8.30 Pagi

Tempat: Dewan Sekolah SMK Dato' IDRIS

Pakaian: Rasmi

Before scanning to the end of the letter for more useful information, I took a breath and let my mind wondering whether or not to attend the ceremony since I am leading a hectic life in recently to prepare myself physically and mentally before I commence my A-level on the first of July. Apart from my business, I was thinking about the exhausting tasks required by JPA (Jabatan Perkhidmatan Awam or Public Service Department) to be done and handed in on the day of registration, namely the 30th of this June before I can get enrolled for the course in UCSI (University College Sedayah International) in Cheras and also my papa and mama's so-called business. My mum gotta to bring her *lovely* (That's what she thinks) students to Ayer Tawar for a Science Carnival held by PPD Manjung (Office of Education of Manjung district, not for sure) in SMK Ambrose on the same day. Without letting my mind to keep on wandering, I had made my mind up not to attend the ceremony but still continue with the letter:

3. Kerjasama pihak encik / cik amat dihargai dan didahului dengan ucapan terima kasih. Sebarang pertanyaan sila didahului dengan ucapan terima kasih. Sebarang pertanyaan sila hubungi Puan Ahainie ...

I made a fleeting glimpse to the end of the letter until the signature of the present principal of my ex-school. Apart from the signature of the new principal that I was not acquainted with, nothing else at the bottom of the letter had caught my attention to review the letter again. Wandering for the next five minutes and starting to mull over some seemingly unrelated questions: Am I worthy of the best academic award (since I was the best in my ex-school last year) which would be given to me tomorrow morning? Was the excellence due to my diligence before and during the examination or mainly by sheer luck? :(

Such thoughts had struck me unceasingly since the first day of joining ReCom (The Reborn Community, a worldwide portal for Malaysian students to hold discussion about their problems and share their thoughts) . Joining the community might be advantageous to me but somewhat detrimental to my confidence. Meeting different people in there, and have begun to feel myself being a nobody in this competitive world.

On a personal level, I am a deep person but considerably poor in self-expression. I love self-improvement and have numerous moments of self-doubt a day. Sadly, this has thrust myself into a position of awesome responsibilities and it is really exhausting and burdensome. I'm attempting to adapt myself quickly to this situation - and I hope all the efforts I had and shall have can surpass my expectation in the future.