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Tuesday, August 24, 2010
I would consider those who don't know how to say thank you as animals.
And sadly, there are really a lot of this kind around me.
The abhorrence of this kind makes me feel that how important could self-centeredness be sometimes.
I'm gonna learn how to prioritize things before minding business of others, especially those of this kind. They're just too disappointing.
Self-centeredness and self-servingness could be practiced in a positive way, I suppose. D:
Monday, August 23, 2010
I have never been so frustrated since I was brought to this Earth.
Can't you just do things faster. You idiot!
I'm desperately seeking for an exit to escape.
You'll understand what kind of exit I'm meaning when you look at the picture below.
No matter how, I'm always alone on this Earth.
God, please.
Thursday, August 19, 2010
It's been a while since I last shared things about my life as a pharmacy student-to-be. I just wanna update my readers on how the things have gone, whether they seem good or bad to me.
It's a good tiding this time, to me, anyway. :D
To my surprise, I've successfully secured the 3 asterisks for Biology, Chemistry and Maths. Failing to get an asterisk for Physics is just predictable so I have no special feeling about it when I got to know it's not with an * beside the (A). I'm glad anyway cos overall I'm still an A-student for my A2 Physics though am not as good as some of my really extremist-like mates who have got A* and all full marks (they have robot-built brains, indeed)
Just to make this post much nicer to see (Sorry, I didn't mean to show off, haha), I have captured a copy of my result slip and share it here:
I'm very, very contented with my results though they were not as well as those that some of us could get. I'm just ordinary, having this extraordinary results is really a blessing from GOD. I can't deny that I really have had all my efforts into getting these good results but what's more undeniable would be the efforts of our lecturers who were really striving hard to bring us to the line of perfection (as some had requested).
If the lecturers happen to see my blog or this post in the future, I would like to express my gratitude here. I would like to say million thanks to Ms Law, Ms Chua, Mr Chan, Mr Ng and even Mr Fong (though I always played truant during his class) for without their dedication and patience in dealing with us, these so-called JPA-troublemakers, we won't have today.
These words are not superficially-written, they're from my heart.
I might not be able to repay what you have done for me but God will.
Thanks again and may God be with you always :)
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
The words 'charm' and 'charming' always remind me of the 'Prince Charming - Prince Edward' in the Enchanted - A Disney's fantasy-musical film. But today, at this moment when there is a drizzling rain outside, I have a new perception of the word 'charm'.
I should have apprehended it earlier.
Some people have inborn charms - with attractive physical appearance, while some people have inherent charms. 'Inborn' and 'inherent' may mean the same, in some sense, but to me, it is different cos some inborn charms just can't last long and they fade with time.
I wish to have the charms regardless of which type, to be honest. The power of arousing admiration has just been unfairly given one owning it a lot of chances. And, it would just be agreeable to most of the beings on this Earth when a charming person has made a mistake.
Lacking that small bit of charm would have the opposite effect. It's just unreasonably hard to get an opportunity even you have spared all of your efforts in getting it. To the unfortunates who are just lacking this charisma to enchant the people around him or her, don't you ever have an idea that why the world is just treating you differently from other and why's there a discrepancy between you and your 'opponent'? These thoughts will just make you an object of ridicule and bereft of hope.
THINK DIFFERENTLY, I'm saying this to myself.
P/S: This post is not meant to be written in an ironical manner. I apologize if you're a charismatic charm and you're somewhat uncomfortable with it.
Saturday, August 14, 2010
This post is designated as a random one. I just don't like to waste my time on waiting so I make my mind to update my blog. The rest of my family are busy getting ready for my grand-grandma's birthday feast (which will happen 15 mins later and I'm eagerly waiting for it :P).
A minute before this, I signed into my Facebook and glanced through the posts in the 'most recent'. I happened to see some comments by someones whom I think are indescribably superficial (cos they posted that) and couldn't really understand why did they do that. I could barely guess what are their true intentions but I didn't dare to generalize cos don't really wanna get into the trouble of offending some beings with politically correct attitudes.
Getting a bit disturbed, I clicked on 'Profile' on the top and saw what I had done yesterday. My action, to me, was kinda stupid but it seemed to be a considerably suitable way to express my feelings towards certain things that happen around me.
I realized that I had liked a statement by Like or No Like' (A Facebook application though it doesn't appear to be one), i.e. 'Just because i liked your status doesn't mean i like you :P'. And I was reminded by the comments of the reason why I did that.
Let's have an example to make my reason sound more concrete.
A few days ago, I came across with a status post like below:
Obviously, I love Jesus and inherently, I will give away my 'likes' to everyone that has posted it. But, in the meantime, I could see there's a problem lying in between 'like' or 'no like/unlike'. If this post was by someone you like, clicking the 'like' will certainly need no any consideration. But what should one do if this was posted by someone that has somewhat annoyed you at the moment?
Thanks to a convenience given by 'like or no like'. I don't know who's developed this but it's really solved my problem. Haha, I can like your status or any posts but it doesn't really I like you cos you stink. :D
A minute before this, I signed into my Facebook and glanced through the posts in the 'most recent'. I happened to see some comments by someones whom I think are indescribably superficial (cos they posted that) and couldn't really understand why did they do that. I could barely guess what are their true intentions but I didn't dare to generalize cos don't really wanna get into the trouble of offending some beings with politically correct attitudes.
Getting a bit disturbed, I clicked on 'Profile' on the top and saw what I had done yesterday. My action, to me, was kinda stupid but it seemed to be a considerably suitable way to express my feelings towards certain things that happen around me.
I realized that I had liked a statement by Like or No Like' (A Facebook application though it doesn't appear to be one), i.e. 'Just because i liked your status doesn't mean i like you :P'. And I was reminded by the comments of the reason why I did that.
Let's have an example to make my reason sound more concrete.
A few days ago, I came across with a status post like below:
If you believe in Jesus Christ, don't ignore this because The Bible says: If you deny him, He will deny you in front of His Father in the Gates of Heaven. If you love God and you are not ashamed of it, copy this and put it on your wall. I ♥ Jesus forever!
Obviously, I love Jesus and inherently, I will give away my 'likes' to everyone that has posted it. But, in the meantime, I could see there's a problem lying in between 'like' or 'no like/unlike'. If this post was by someone you like, clicking the 'like' will certainly need no any consideration. But what should one do if this was posted by someone that has somewhat annoyed you at the moment?
Thanks to a convenience given by 'like or no like'. I don't know who's developed this but it's really solved my problem. Haha, I can like your status or any posts but it doesn't really I like you cos you stink. :D
Friday, August 13, 2010
It's somehow irritating when I look at words like: thee, thou, thy, thyself and thine.
Not knowing the actual meanings of the words as well as how they're correctly used are definitely not a problem owing to the fact that their attendance at the books is very rare and we'd be considered as very obsolete if we are to use them in daily life.
However, they do really exist in a great abundance on the pages of bible and hymn of praises. It'll be pointless to read from verses to verses, chapters to chapters and even books to books if I can't make a meaning out of the scripture read. And, unfortunately, these words were among those that worsen my understanding of the old-fashionedly-written and hard-to-be-intelligible sentences.
Couldn't bear to read without comprehension, I checked the built-in dictionary in my Mac to look for the meanings of each word. Maybe it's really God's will to make me learn these words cos when I typed 'thou' in the search box, it came out with a whole list, explaining how the words are used in comparison to the 'you, your, yourself' that we're using right now.
* * * Adapted from the dictionary * * *
So, have thou learn something from thy reading? Thou should practice thyself to gain better understanding. It's none of my business but it's thine if thou wanna use it in thy writing. What I can only say is 'if thou continue to do so, it'd be very old-fashioned of thee' Haha, I have successfully used all the words. *The sentences seem odd, but to me, they are acceptable :P*
Not knowing the actual meanings of the words as well as how they're correctly used are definitely not a problem owing to the fact that their attendance at the books is very rare and we'd be considered as very obsolete if we are to use them in daily life.
However, they do really exist in a great abundance on the pages of bible and hymn of praises. It'll be pointless to read from verses to verses, chapters to chapters and even books to books if I can't make a meaning out of the scripture read. And, unfortunately, these words were among those that worsen my understanding of the old-fashionedly-written and hard-to-be-intelligible sentences.
Couldn't bear to read without comprehension, I checked the built-in dictionary in my Mac to look for the meanings of each word. Maybe it's really God's will to make me learn these words cos when I typed 'thou' in the search box, it came out with a whole list, explaining how the words are used in comparison to the 'you, your, yourself' that we're using right now.
* * * Adapted from the dictionary * * *
In modern English, the personal pronoun you (together with the possessives your and yours) covers a number of uses: it is both singular and plural, both objective and subjective, and both formal and familiar. This has not always been the case.
In Old English and Middle English, some of these different functions of you were supplied by different words. Thus,
Thou was at one time the singular subjective case, e.g. thou art a beast, while;
Thee was the singular objective case, e.g. he cares not for thee.
In addition, the form thy (modern equivalent your) was the singular possessive determiner, and;
Thine (modern equivalent yours) the singular possessive pronoun, both corresponding to thee.
The forms you and ye, on the other hand, were at one time reserved for plural uses.* * * The end of the adapted * * *
So, have thou learn something from thy reading? Thou should practice thyself to gain better understanding. It's none of my business but it's thine if thou wanna use it in thy writing. What I can only say is 'if thou continue to do so, it'd be very old-fashioned of thee' Haha, I have successfully used all the words. *The sentences seem odd, but to me, they are acceptable :P*
Thursday, August 12, 2010
It was 11.43 33 PM when I was writing the first sentence.
The rain outside has stopped drizzling.
My brother's digital clock just beeped.
My mum had a night call moments ago.
I left a Facebook comment for my status update minutes ago.
I had a great time with my brother on Bomber Man 5's normal mode and we're quite pissed off with the king in the final stage of level 9 cos we couldn't find a way to finish him and he kept regenerating like flatworms.
I had a mouthful of leftover cake of my grandma's birthday.
We talked about my cousin's oncoming stay in London, with me.
I wanted to play a song - to attempt to find a new way of playing - left it after 20 mins and felt highly 'not-song'.
It was hot the whole evening, I was with my mum, sending my sister to the watch shop in the old town. She got scolded.
It was hot the whole afternoon, I waited for 1 hour for my turn to see the physician.
I saw 'brown' stated on the report, indicating the color of my urine. *Yucks* It was written on the 'abnormal' column and it's kinda worried me.
I was urinating in the toilet. :P
A nurse was kind enough to remind me that I didn't actually have the report showing tests for the presence of glucose and protein in my urine.
I was waiting in the clinic. The sun's radiating heat outside. I was in an air-conditioned room with lotsa flies. I used my file and documents to swing away the flies.
Babies were crying loudly.
I was in the car, realizing that the meter didn't work. I hit heavily on the dashboard and the pointer raised.
I was heading home in the kancil, with my grandma and her just-bought philips cd-player which costs RM 110.
My grandma was bargaining. RM 125 --> RM 118
My grandma came out with an idea that she wanted to buy a new radio. She hated the idea of using TV to read her CDs.
It was 2 PM, it's time that I need to go back to the clinic to see the doctor who's missing in the morning.
The rain outside has stopped drizzling.
My brother's digital clock just beeped.
My mum had a night call moments ago.
I left a Facebook comment for my status update minutes ago.
I had a great time with my brother on Bomber Man 5's normal mode and we're quite pissed off with the king in the final stage of level 9 cos we couldn't find a way to finish him and he kept regenerating like flatworms.
I had a mouthful of leftover cake of my grandma's birthday.
We talked about my cousin's oncoming stay in London, with me.
I wanted to play a song - to attempt to find a new way of playing - left it after 20 mins and felt highly 'not-song'.
It was hot the whole evening, I was with my mum, sending my sister to the watch shop in the old town. She got scolded.
It was hot the whole afternoon, I waited for 1 hour for my turn to see the physician.
I saw 'brown' stated on the report, indicating the color of my urine. *Yucks* It was written on the 'abnormal' column and it's kinda worried me.
I was urinating in the toilet. :P
A nurse was kind enough to remind me that I didn't actually have the report showing tests for the presence of glucose and protein in my urine.
I was waiting in the clinic. The sun's radiating heat outside. I was in an air-conditioned room with lotsa flies. I used my file and documents to swing away the flies.
Babies were crying loudly.
I was in the car, realizing that the meter didn't work. I hit heavily on the dashboard and the pointer raised.
I was heading home in the kancil, with my grandma and her just-bought philips cd-player which costs RM 110.
My grandma was bargaining. RM 125 --> RM 118
My grandma came out with an idea that she wanted to buy a new radio. She hated the idea of using TV to read her CDs.
It was 2 PM, it's time that I need to go back to the clinic to see the doctor who's missing in the morning.
Thursday, August 5, 2010
It's been seven months since I last got in contact with my weblog. It's really a long while. What ignites my interest in getting back to blogging is when I found that everyone, even my lazy ex-housemate has already written quite a lotsa things (with pictures some more) in his newly-created blog. I suppose my kiasu nature is the major factor that pushes me into writing again.
Let's recall what I had long written for the past few months or rather past few years. I began to scribble (the word I used to describe what I post when I first started with blogging) after I'd got to know my SPM results in March 2008. My first posts were all quite related to the happy incidents like attending school's award days and receiving money all that. After that, I had my first post in UCSI on 1st of July 2008, which was actually the second day of mine in UCSI.
I continued to write my posts in Word cos we had no Internet access in where we stayed and posted them online when I was in the school library. It's kinda enjoying when trying to recollect the events that had happened in the past though some memory has faded away. Most of my scribbles in 2009 were aimed at improving my English cos IETLS was just around the corner. When I'm reading back, I found that some of them are totally meaningless and I'm gonna be held up as an object of ridicule if I continue to keep them. But anyway, it's become part of my history so it'd be better to keep them.
In 2010, 'Am I in your list' was the first and the only post before this. It was written when I was in an indeed down mood. I was in despair and desperation for the well-beings of all my relationships. Thanks to God that HE partially listened to my prayers (partially did imply that I wasn't sincere enough in praying so the prayers were not heard). Guess this 2010-post was still remaining unread cos I have never made an effort to expose it. (Before this, I would always post on my Facebook Wall, updating my friends about what I've done to my blog)
The last line of the paragraph caused me to conjure up the images of mine designing the posters for Student Council and Hope Revive. I should mock myself here cos I'm not really a good designer. I had once been proud of it, though. *muka tembok*
There were sad things and happy things during my times in UCSI though I really think the former stays as the majority. Nevertheless, what I've experienced all this while have indeed taught me a lotsa lessons which I couldn't possibly find them in anywhere else. I wanna to say thank you to my Lord en route to continue to crap. :D
I have just done a renovation which I think is more tasteful than the previous ones if you have noticed that (Please refer to a doctor if you don't see any changes :P). My 'tagline' has just been changed to 'Listening to Yijing's craps', haha, I do really crap a lot, particularly after knowing some friends who are genuine crappers (JF and LJ, I'm saying this to you). Not just all the physical changes that you have just seen but also, psychologically and mentally, I have changed tremendously.
Why do I say so? I was blogging for blogging, previously. Presently, everything has changed. I will write what I want not what I'm meant to write. This is the greatest change and this is the change that I desire all the while. Blogging will soon become part of my life. I just hope I won't lose the passion to continue sharing my thoughts.
'Wahahahaha' It's so glad to declare that I have grown up. It could be just a bit, according to my dear mum. :D Outsiders might not see much changes in me but trust me I really have changed, both positively and negatively (kinda sad to say cos I seriously have been driving myself far away from God) *God, please give me strength to come back to you*
For readers of my blog, I guess you would have started to yawn, expressing your boredom of reading this post. All in all, it's time for me to reboot myself now and it's time for the readers to see a more casual me. Let's begin to write again!
Let's recall what I had long written for the past few months or rather past few years. I began to scribble (the word I used to describe what I post when I first started with blogging) after I'd got to know my SPM results in March 2008. My first posts were all quite related to the happy incidents like attending school's award days and receiving money all that. After that, I had my first post in UCSI on 1st of July 2008, which was actually the second day of mine in UCSI.
I continued to write my posts in Word cos we had no Internet access in where we stayed and posted them online when I was in the school library. It's kinda enjoying when trying to recollect the events that had happened in the past though some memory has faded away. Most of my scribbles in 2009 were aimed at improving my English cos IETLS was just around the corner. When I'm reading back, I found that some of them are totally meaningless and I'm gonna be held up as an object of ridicule if I continue to keep them. But anyway, it's become part of my history so it'd be better to keep them.
In 2010, 'Am I in your list' was the first and the only post before this. It was written when I was in an indeed down mood. I was in despair and desperation for the well-beings of all my relationships. Thanks to God that HE partially listened to my prayers (partially did imply that I wasn't sincere enough in praying so the prayers were not heard). Guess this 2010-post was still remaining unread cos I have never made an effort to expose it. (Before this, I would always post on my Facebook Wall, updating my friends about what I've done to my blog)
The last line of the paragraph caused me to conjure up the images of mine designing the posters for Student Council and Hope Revive. I should mock myself here cos I'm not really a good designer. I had once been proud of it, though. *muka tembok*
There were sad things and happy things during my times in UCSI though I really think the former stays as the majority. Nevertheless, what I've experienced all this while have indeed taught me a lotsa lessons which I couldn't possibly find them in anywhere else. I wanna to say thank you to my Lord en route to continue to crap. :D
I have just done a renovation which I think is more tasteful than the previous ones if you have noticed that (Please refer to a doctor if you don't see any changes :P). My 'tagline' has just been changed to 'Listening to Yijing's craps', haha, I do really crap a lot, particularly after knowing some friends who are genuine crappers (JF and LJ, I'm saying this to you). Not just all the physical changes that you have just seen but also, psychologically and mentally, I have changed tremendously.
Why do I say so? I was blogging for blogging, previously. Presently, everything has changed. I will write what I want not what I'm meant to write. This is the greatest change and this is the change that I desire all the while. Blogging will soon become part of my life. I just hope I won't lose the passion to continue sharing my thoughts.
'Wahahahaha' It's so glad to declare that I have grown up. It could be just a bit, according to my dear mum. :D Outsiders might not see much changes in me but trust me I really have changed, both positively and negatively (kinda sad to say cos I seriously have been driving myself far away from God) *God, please give me strength to come back to you*
For readers of my blog, I guess you would have started to yawn, expressing your boredom of reading this post. All in all, it's time for me to reboot myself now and it's time for the readers to see a more casual me. Let's begin to write again!
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Dear family members, friends and acquaintances of mine,
If you happen to see this post, kindly use the title of this post as a question for the following statements. This is neither a test nor a quiz and so there’s no true or false. Rather, it is more similar to a questionnaire, often to be filled up by us if you encounter one in your college who’s desperate for information for their research.
Let’s see what I have, I suppose I should take the good things first:
You’ve a very personal problem; it can be everything and need one to share it with.
You’ve planned a trip to the place you really fancy and you need the people you care to go and enjoy with you.
You always have a patient heart to listen and give consolation to your buddies’ probs.
You’ve a birthday party for your 20th birthday and you invite those who are indeed crucial in your life.
You’ve recently moved to a new apartment and you hope your friends can come and have a look on your new dwelling.
You’ve a pile of notes to whack up.
You’ve bought a special kind of delish food and you wish you can have it with your best friends.
You’ve come across a good thing that you think I will like this and would really want to have it from you.
Ah~ I guess you may think me as very materialistic but they actually have hidden clues. Let’s see what I have prepared for the cynical and pessimistic part.
You’re seeking for one who can fulfill your every need, help you whenever and wherever you want but never hope that he or she will need yours one day.
You’re searching for a fool who will never say ‘no’ to any request from you.
You’re frowning disapprovingly at one who’s a geek which literally suits the adjectives: weak, stupid and awkward.
You really hate this person a lot for not more than one reason, i.e. he or she really makes you sick.
You’re watching one with disdain when you’ve found out they couldn’t find a perfect solution for you.
You’ll never want this person to be part of your life.
You have never wanted so much to throw an F-bomb on him or her.
You’ve never seen one with hideous appearance.
You’ll do well when you need him or her and the opposite when he or she is not better than a load of rubbish.
Have these questions scared your pants off? I don’t think so if you know me well. Of course, I genuinely like to see there are many ‘yes’ for the first part though it’s sometimes not quite possible.
There’s one statement that I’ve affirmed:
God love everyone. Yes, I’m in the list. Please keep me in your list forever, I’m begging you, Father. Amen.
If you happen to see this post, kindly use the title of this post as a question for the following statements. This is neither a test nor a quiz and so there’s no true or false. Rather, it is more similar to a questionnaire, often to be filled up by us if you encounter one in your college who’s desperate for information for their research.
Let’s see what I have, I suppose I should take the good things first:
You’ve a very personal problem; it can be everything and need one to share it with.
You’ve planned a trip to the place you really fancy and you need the people you care to go and enjoy with you.
You always have a patient heart to listen and give consolation to your buddies’ probs.
You’ve a birthday party for your 20th birthday and you invite those who are indeed crucial in your life.
You’ve recently moved to a new apartment and you hope your friends can come and have a look on your new dwelling.
You’ve a pile of notes to whack up.
You’ve bought a special kind of delish food and you wish you can have it with your best friends.
You’ve come across a good thing that you think I will like this and would really want to have it from you.
Ah~ I guess you may think me as very materialistic but they actually have hidden clues. Let’s see what I have prepared for the cynical and pessimistic part.
You’re seeking for one who can fulfill your every need, help you whenever and wherever you want but never hope that he or she will need yours one day.
You’re searching for a fool who will never say ‘no’ to any request from you.
You’re frowning disapprovingly at one who’s a geek which literally suits the adjectives: weak, stupid and awkward.
You really hate this person a lot for not more than one reason, i.e. he or she really makes you sick.
You’re watching one with disdain when you’ve found out they couldn’t find a perfect solution for you.
You’ll never want this person to be part of your life.
You have never wanted so much to throw an F-bomb on him or her.
You’ve never seen one with hideous appearance.
You’ll do well when you need him or her and the opposite when he or she is not better than a load of rubbish.
Have these questions scared your pants off? I don’t think so if you know me well. Of course, I genuinely like to see there are many ‘yes’ for the first part though it’s sometimes not quite possible.
There’s one statement that I’ve affirmed:
God love everyone. Yes, I’m in the list. Please keep me in your list forever, I’m begging you, Father. Amen.
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